Hey, its been awhile since my last entry =)

Know what? Today as i walked into SIM, i saw a bunch of people graduating! Wearing the robe and that "square" hat... wow.. i am so envy~

The whole atrium was filled with graduating students and nice buffet spread being laid out~ *envy envy* Its totally crowded there with guests and i had a hard time passing through the atrium and make my way to the library for my exam revisions~ *wahh*

Half way to the library, i whispered to myself.. "Dear Paul, Its about 400 over days more to your turn to wear that robe and pose in front of the camera! Make it happen!" =) Suddenly i felt pretty motivated to study and go for my distinctions!

Yup.. that very day is nearing... and do whatever that will make that very day happen =)


Btw, something not so happy happened... which i am very very very disappointed... yeah... someone from my insurance team actually kind of stabbed me~ =(

i am totally disappointed with that teammate of mine and the integrity and ethic she holds, in short, i am about to loss a case which i have secured just because of unfair incentives offered by my teammate to under cut me... 1 hard earned case gone~ with all the effort put in...

I was quite furious at first, and was thinking should i keep up with those incentives offered? but my heart was calling out, "Dont keep up! Its unethical and illegal!"... So i reconsidered the issue and it seems the opportunity cost of crippling my career outweighs the need to win back this case by unethical and illegal inputs... so be it... Harvest is plentiful~ And unethical is not Paul's style at all... I prefer a fair competition =)

anyway... i still feel kinda upset inside... maybe for a normal person, he will be waiting for chance to backstab that person... and deep inside i realised that evil thought is being seeded in the heart which will ultimately bare the fruit of sin. That brings me back to the question of when do i wanna reconcile with God? He is waiting there at the door and i am refusing to step in for whatever reason..

It sucks without Christ but why are you so stuborn Paul?